Happy New Year! I'm ready to make 2013 my B****! How about you?
Now that the hangover from NYE celebrations has subsided, I'm as ready as ever to accomplish some big goals. My main New Year's Resolution is to do a 30-Day Challenge every single month of 2013. The concept is incredibly simple, but I think the results can be life changing.
For January, I'm doing Yoga everyday. Each month I'll pick something new that either I've always wanted to try or that will help achieve some of my bigger goals. Some of my smaller goals include:
--finishing National Novel Writing Month (write 50,000 words in November). I've wanted to do this for the past 6 years and have never been able to get myself to commit
-- be a pescetarian for a month
-- call a friend or relative everyday for a month
-- 10-day juice fast
-- play poker for a minimum of 40 hours a month
-- Study writing
-- Study nutrition
-- Run a marathon/complete a half ironman
-- Become more confident/assertive
A few months ago, I tweeted the following video that begs the question, "If money were no object, how would you really enjoy spending your life?" Do you know?
I'm still in the process of really figuring that out, but I do know a few things. I know that I love to write, I love living a healthy lifestyle, and that making others laugh or feel inspired is incredibly rewarding. So, with that, here are my big goals for 2013:
Write a book
Compete in Fitness America (November)
Win Pro Card (Fitness Competition) <-- First competition date marked is an NPC event on April 13.
In addition to these goals, I also want to make sure my close relationships remain my top priority. Ambition is great, but not if it's blinding. You don't want to reach the top of mountain with no around. Well, at least I don't. I want lots of people there, slapping my ass saying, "Great climb, champ!" Make sense?
I'm going to keep track of my goals and progress very closely via my blog, some on twitter, but lots on instagram (so don't follow me if you don't like food pics). I want to do this so I keep myself accountable because I have given up so many times. These are going to be my two mottos this year:
Get after what you want! It may seem impossible, but you'll never know unless you actually try. And if you don't try then you'll regret it. And then you die. So ya, GET YOUR ASS MOVING!
And listen, you're going to meet obstacles. Some of the obstacles might even be your so called friends. People love to hate or bring down others because they'll see something in you that they wish they could do. Don't stop!!! Arnold didn't!!
I have to admit that I've scoffed a few times at the idea of doing yoga, but I've recently decided to give it a try for a few reasons:
1) some poses look cool as balls
This broad is amazing! She's @laurasykora on instagram
2) my body is starting to feel old as fug
3) I need to become more flexible to reach my next fitness goal of competing in Fitness America.
This is an example of a Fitness America routine. For the record, I'm SOOO far from this goal it's ridiculous, but I'm determined.
I've been stretching everyday for the past couple of weeks, and it feels sooooo good. Here's where I'm at right now:
Especially for you poker players out there, I can't tell you how much stretching will help your body. For me, it also calms my mind. You don't have to do yoga per say, but just do a few stretches in the morning and at night. Try it! What's the worst the could happen? Let me know how it goes
For those of you guys who follow me on twitter, you know that I am currently on a huge health kick. I've been eating super healthy and also following a workout program I found on Bodybuilding.com. I feel great and am see some results (meaning my guns are getting huge).
Honestly, the hardest part for me is eating healthy (well, besides dealing with douche bags at the gym, but that's a whole other story). With the WSOP coming up, I know a lot of players are getting on the health bandwagon. I figured I should share some tips I've learned about eating.
BTW, those muffin-looking things are mini turkey meatloafs. They are soo good! Here is the recipe.
I also use this awesome natural protein powder from Growing Naturals. It's nonfat, low carbs, low sugar, and tastes really good. Hint: don't forget to the put the top back on after usage.
Hmmm... what else? Drink green tea!!! I think that's it. I'm still learning and am by no means an expert. I just thought I'd share what I've learned so far.
The other thing I wanted to talk about was a competition I decided to do. I figured that I'd put it at the bottom of this blog post because if you made it through all the pictures of food, then you would care more about what I'm about to talk about The competition is put on by Under Armour, and it's called the What's Beautiful Challenge. Basically, you set a goal, work on it for the next two months, upload photos and videos about your progress, and complete challenges along the way. One of them was to work out twice in one 24hour period... I tried yoga. Hahah it wasn't pretty but this is what I uploaded to complete the challenge.
There are thousands of women participating, and the prize is that the top 10 girls will get $1000 worth of UA gear, and the top three will get sponsorship and become the new faces of UA.
The whole goal behind this is to change the way people think of beauty in women, and I couldn't agree more with the message this campaign stands for. If you're interested, here's the first video I uploaded for this competition
Hope you guys are well!
So you might be wondering why the hell I would put a smiley face after "downswing" in the title... welp, I guess I just decided not to be upset about it. I'm currently going through the largest downswing I've ever had. If I'm being honest, it's not all that bad. I am, by nature, a bankroll nit and a bit weak when it comes to handling large swings. When I start to go on a downswing, I'll usually drop in stakes, put in a few confidence grinds, and get it together. Also, the live games that I play have been so soft that it's almost impossible to stay down for long. This time though, I decided to be a little harder on myself, continue playing the same stakes and try to weather the storm. That plan isn't working out so well.
My January and start to 2012 is abismal. Just before leaving to go to the PCA, I had one of my biggest winning sessions ever, and I felt like I was playing at the top of my game. I went to the Bahamas, didn't play a hand of poker for two weeks, and came back to Vegas ready to grind. After a couple of losing sessions, I already started to feel less confident. This is a huge l leak that I know I have, and I recently discussed it with Jared Tendler (author of The Mental Game of Poker) in one of the Strategy with Kristy podcasts. When I start to feel less confident, I begin to doubt myself, have less trust in my instincts, and make mistakes which obviously exacerbates the problem. I recognize that directly correlating my confidence with my results is completely irrational, but it's hard to immediately break a habit I've had for years.
I've always been that way. If a bunch of people are like, "You're awesome. You're pretty. You're good at your job," I feel on top of the world. I feel like I can do anything and no one can stop me. If I read some comments or forums and people say, "She's so ugly. She sucks. She's annoying," I have a habit of wanting to fold in on myself. In the past couple of years, I've become much stronger and my self confidence doesn't hinge so much on what other people say about me anymore. Now, it motivates me to improve.
But for some reason, I'm still working on gaining that strength in poker. I think it's maybe because I've had a chip on my shoulder. I've always felt like the girl who always has to prove how good I am. I want the pros I talk to at my job to approve of me as a player. I want my friends to respect my opinion when we all discuss poker. I guess I just wanted recognition for the hours and hard work that I've put in. It's taken me this downswing to realize that it doesn't matter.
Whether it's poker, your career, or whatever, you have to do things for you. Of course recognition will come when you are "owning" in whatever you're doing, but it shouldn't be a motivator.
The most helpful thing that Jared taught me was how to "Inject logic." Whenever you are feeling sorry for yourself at the tables, tilted, or even over confident, talk to yourself with rational reminders. I know that I am a huge winner in the games I play. Variance is an essential and inevitable part of the game. I know I still have a lot to learn. I know I still have leaks. I know that hard work is ahead of me, but I'm ready.
I woke up this morning ready to conquer the day. I ate some oatmeal and headed to the gym. (side story: There was gorgeous blonde with tiggo bitties on the middle treadmill of three, so I had to get on the one next to her. She was walking at a good pace. I started jogging and so did she. I stopped to stretch while she kept running. She stopped a minute later and smirked at me. I smiled back, not really sure what was going on. After stretching I got back on and started running again. So did she. I pushed the button to go a little faster. So did she. WTF? I continued with the plan I had in my head of how long/fast I was going to run. After two miles, I went faster. So did she. I laughed. Ok broad, is this really happening? Let's go. I clicked the up button a bunch of times and kept running. Finally, she let out an exasperated sigh and slammed the Stop button. I ran a few extra yards for good measure and stopped. What the hell just happened? All I know is, if there was some sort of competition going on... I won. So yeah, I'm competitive) Anyway, I'm going come out of this downswing in no time. I'm not sure if I'm going to play today because I'd been making a ton of mistakes as an affect of my time of during the Bahamas, waning confidence, and frustrating of my downswing. I may take today off, depending on how I feel, but I plan on getting back on the saddle soon.
Also, I'm going to start posting on my personal blog every Wednesday!
<3 you hoodlums,
P.S. It helps to know that even the most amazing and talented players go on downswings. Phil Galfond recently posted this:
P.P.S. When I'm feeling down, memes always make me laugh. Yeah, I know, I'm a nerd. Whatever. I dare you not to laugh!
EDIT: Perfect timing. Jared just came out with a new podcast of his where he addresses confidence. Great listen.