Sarah Grant

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Into the Abyss

April 24, 2012

Tags: Karla Faye Tucker, Sarah grant, Dateline, Films, Werner herzog, Larry king.

Just watched this movie the other day by Werner Herzog called Into The Abyss. I watch a lot of documentaries, and a lot of powerful ones at that. But there are some moments in a documentary that make you re-examine yourself. Granted a lot of moments after I watch a good doc I want to sign a petition, start a garden, start a revolution, etc. Every now and then something really makes you look at yourself. Now, Into the Abyss is described as:

Conversations with death row inmate Michael Perry and those affected by his crime serve as an examination of why people - and the state - kill.

Not exactly something I am expecting to relate to and definitely not something I am imagining is going to garner a lot of self reflection. But, low and behold, the universe had a little gem waiting for me. Now, the documentary itself was very interesting. Anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE Dateline NBC for all its in depth case studies. It is amazing to me that normal, or seemingly normal, people KILL people. And sadly, like watching the wreckage of a car crash or something, I often find myself, having a Dateline marathon. However, that is not what interested me about his particular documentary.

During one of part of the show Herzog was interviewing Fred Allen, a modern day executioner. Knowing Texans a little bit, I was very shocked by his interview. Here is a clip.

After watching that it blew my mind that something as simple as a genuine thank you from a pure heart had changed his whole world. My mind was wrapped up in so many concepts: Love, forgiveness, compassion, empathy, intention, language.......omg, was this guy for real? So I looked up the woman he was talking about:
Karla Faye Tucker

Not really sure how I never heard about that before. But apparently it was a big deal. Even Larry king interviewed her:
Larry King Interview

And yet, the thing that made his experience of her so poignant, wasn't really her. It was the power of words said with truth and intention. She said hardly anything but she said it with love and forgiveness at a time when most are likely at least a little bit bitter. I think a lot of people can never even admit they did anything wrong. (Although some really never did anything, but that is another blog altogether). In some way the film revealed the character of each person by the nature of how they spoke. In fact, I don't think this was something the film intended to do, but something revealed by humans innately all the time.

Of course this made me think of the power of words both good and bad. In general I think the power of words is much stronger in kindness and compassion than in hate and anger. But neither can be discounted. And I have said many shitty things in my life and hope that they were forgotten. Obviously when someone says something shitty to me, I try to forget. But those things said genuinely out of a truthful heart that are full of empathy and compassion, those things are not easily or likely forgotten. I think to say something publicly like one does in a blog is to declare to the world your own intention. So, I affirm here, my intention: to speak with gentle compassion, genuine forgiveness, and loving kindness as often as I possibly can.

The Latest Gems

April 16, 2012

Tags: Sarah grant, Coachella, Videos, Funny, Viral.

So every now and then I like to post the most recent viral videos or things I've discovered on the internet that I love.
1. I used to go to Coachella every year. Here is a pic from one of the years I went with my LA crew. We stayed up almost the whole time with a few brief interludes of napping in the tent. Only to be awoken gross and sweaty when the sun rose on our tent...which was essentially a sauna by 6am. I had a blast and I am sad to see Coachella come and go minus me. Sad

But who was there that you wouldn't expect? Tupac. Check it out.

HOLOGRAMS! Boom. My mom used to watch Star Trek when I was a kid, religiously. Even Deep Space Nine. And I remember I used to think that if I could only have a hologram reality I could be in love with whomever I wanted. I would pray for a Brad Pitt hologram. Welp, we are almost there! stop....fantasy land. Who would I pick now? What would YOUR hologram reality look like?
Now this little girl is making her own reality!

Obviously it is me, so I have to put a dog something in there somewhere.

And this one reminded me about the little pleasures we all enjoy in this life and sometimes forget to appreciate. LIKE MUSIC.

Hope you enjoy them as much I did this week! Off to Cebu on Thursday! Can't wait!!

When I Win One Drop

April 08, 2012

Tags: Sarah grant, One Drop, What would I.

I just heard a few days ago that it would be possible to satellite into the One Drop Million Dollar Buy In Event for only $65. Talk about a return on investment. What an incredible opportunity. Not to mention it is good for the world too, as One Drop provides sustainable access to water around the world. It got me thinking what would I do with a million dollars....I mean I know people who have gone through way more than a million dollars in a few years. It seems like a LOT to me. But then, how much is it really? What could I actually do with it, if I had to spend it all.
-First I would tithe 10%. Probably a lot of it would go to animal shelters that are no kill Best Friends
-I would buy a new car. Definitely would be energy efficient. Likely a Tesla

-I would buy some property that is farmable and has some water on it. It would probably end up being in Texas as that is where Heath wants to end up and I can live anywhere.
-I would buy solar panels for my new property. Smile
-I would want to rent a huge place and throw a party for my friends and family. Maybe we could do it like a a villa or something on a Vinyard!
-I would take this gun class in Vegas where you spend 3-4 days really learning how to handle a weapon and do it well. And get a gun.
-Start getting facials and massages.
-get a new phone. ( i have the iphone 3 since I lost my other one in January)
-Start a college fund for my pseudo nephew Cam.

-rent a car and drive through Switzerland and Tuscany. (since my trip to Campione)

-Probably get an apartment here in Vegas so I don't have to worry about rent. There are some so cheap right now that are amazing. And I think I will always play poker, so having a place here would never be bad. A unit down the hall from us just got forclosed on and it sold for $83k.
-Buy Heath into the main
-Give my brother a downpayment on a house.
-buy some gold
-Buy a seed bank
-A supply of dried food
-a really good water purifier
-A wine cellar!
-a new work out wardrobe including awesome shoes

Something like that...and probably a lot more!!!